Season 2 Day 2

Can I confess something... I'm feeling this pressure to get back to being the "queen of the damned" for the wrestling world.  It's not something coming from outside, from other fans who read my wrestling write ups; and it's sure as hell not coming from the industry.  There are hundreds of fans who have started doing what I was doing.
The pressure is all self inflicted.  And I'm not too sure why?
I almost feel guilty I stopped doing the wrestling reviews and commentary. 
Maybe slowed down to a non audible crawl is more like it as I still once a month or so do a small post over on my under used wrestling blog.

I actually blogged this morning over on my main blog.  The big red one.  I miss that blog.  I just haven't been in the same vibe for writing on there lately as I have for here.  Again, some blogging guilt.

Okay, I think I will use this blog, for the next few days as a place to talk about tv.  Just to give myself a chance to get back into the grove with my other blogs.

So this coming week on this here blog, will be about the new tv shows.  And tonight, ABC's line up is going to be a heavy one.   The return of Once Upon A Time,  the return of Revenge and the new show 666 Park Avenue.
So I'll either get around to posting about them tonight after I watch them, or tomorrow.  I'm still toying with the idea of turning this into a motivational/weight loss blog... but I think until I get my grove back with my main blog... tv show rewinds for a few days it is.

Hope everyone is having a wicked Sunday.

Season 2 Day 1

I'm running about twenty minutes behind this morning.

And I still have no idea what to do with this blog now.  Do I go with the logical route and just continue on as I was, or do I dedicate this to one topic?

What I sort of miss is the circle group of wishes that I was part of on here last year.   But I long since stopped taking part in the group because it was just difficult to keep up with everyone. There were a few hundred on some days to get to.

I am a blog addict.  Seriously, I am.  I've had a few main blogs over the last 8 or so years, but I keep branching out with single blogs for certain topics because I was finding that certain readers only wanted certain topics and would bitch when they had to hunt through my posts all the time.

What is suppose to be my "main blog"  right now, has gone down to about once a week.  And that's not on purpose either.  Just, ended up spending all my time in the last few months on here and on the movie blog.

And it's only going to get worse with the themed movie challenge I am going to do in the New Year. I'm sort of resurrecting a nearly dead blog for that project. 

More on all this later, I need to get to physio therapy.

Stay sane

Day 365

Oh my god, I finished something!
That was part of the reason for doing a "year" of blogging.   so this wasn't perfect. I mean, man, it took me an extra what 9 months I think to complete 365 days.  Something I didn't manage to do on the original YILOORN blog. 
The reason I never continued on that one was because I wanted to distance myself from the crap, from the drama that had been the start point of the original one. And I felt fake on that original YILOORN blog.  I was catering a lot to the women's group I had joined at that time. I was hiding from a former friend/business partner and basically from myself.

I know there has been moments on this one that has leaned towards some but still, I feel this blog here is so much lighter, warmer, and healthier then some of the other blogs I've worked on over the years.

If I had been thinking clearly, when I started the one movie a day challenge back on December 3rd 2011,  I would have done the blogging for that either on here or else on my main blog.  But, I was so in the moment with the idea of blogging for a year straight with a purpose; that I went off and created the movie blog.

I think that might have been part too of why this blog got so in the weeds for awhile, I didn't have a theme or purpose for it for a really long time.  Ironically, this is where I felt the most comfortable talking about my knee injury that it became the health update blog.
My poor readers.  Those of you who have been loyal to me the most, I'm sorry I've made you jump around so much from blog to blog.

I have to figure out now how to turn around the energy on some of my other blogs to make a few people more comfortable reading them. And myself for that matter.  There has been times when I've logged into my own blogs to post and have gotten just bad vibes because of other people having visited, or left comments or what have you.
And even if you don't believe that sort of thing, you can't deny that some places on the internet just make you feel overwhelmed or tired or icky.

Either way, you understand what I mean.

So, I am down to something like 90 days  on the movie challenge blog. I've completed 275 days of movies. And even though I missed last night, it's crunch time now.  I will not be able to miss many more in order to complete it before New Years.  So here's hoping nothing unforeseen happens between now and the end of December to keep me from doing so.
Which means, all the "what that movie inspired me to do"  projects will have to wait till after the new year. And I do have a few in progress as well as a short list of ones I still want to do.   The movie blog will have to be straight up movies and maybe a few quotes here and there, nothing that's going to take too many hours from the day.
I spend close to 4 hours of the day in physio therapy now, 5 days a week.

And you might be wondering why I'm feeling the rush not to go over the movie challenge into the New Year?    Well, because I've already got the beginning stages of a second one started.
One that I want to start on January the 1st 2013.  I've been hinting at it for the last few weeks, and I am actually excited about it.

For anyone who is just tuning into this, you might be wondering why a grown woman would be excited about something like challenging herself to watch one movie a day for a year?  
Because, I learned stuff about myself during this first experiment.  And I am talking about the movie challenge.  I learned how well or not so well depending on your point of view, I can handle the unexpected.  I learned a lot about how my relationships with my family members were not what I always thought they were.
And I'm still learning.  Which I think is a great point of the project.

I just realized how long this blog post is, so I will wrap this one up.

I'm still going to use this blog, I just have to figure out what direction I want to take it. 

Catch up with everyone tomorrow...

364 B

Does anyone else find those dolls that pee creepy?

Babysitting again over here, and She 's got one of those dolls.  Seems a bit on the morbid side, and for me to call something morbid given my obsession with vampires, is saying something.

And if you're following the movie blog... I am not sure I'll get the movie write up done tonight, because of the babysitting issue. 
I know I've mentioned it before, about how when I started that one movie a day challenge, I did not consider that there would be days when things would get in the way and keep me from getting to see the movies. 
Which is something I've taken into consider for the next challenge.

catch you all tomorrow

Day 364

One day to go on this "assignment"  then I start a new one.
I actually slept till the alarm went off this morning.  And I feel like I lost half my morning.  Gotten so used to being up 45minutes before the alarm, didn't realize how much I actually got done in that extra time.

So short post this morning.

I'm terrible at multitasking.  Really wish I didn't have to go to physio today.  Could use more sleep.
Having first cup of coffee and then rushing to get ready to go.

I'll post more later...

Day 363

it's after midnight, so it's okay to post.
Getting ready for bed, sort of.  I know I should be asleep but was watching the end of WWE Raw, which we get here an hour later.  Yes, that's right, Canada gets the Live Monday Night Raw  taped with an hour delay. So it's not all that live.

I have no idea why either?

Anyways, caught the last hour of it after watching Revolution.  Will catch up with the first two hours on replay tomorrow.  Yes, that's right, the Score in Canada gives us two replays cause we're like wrestling junkies. 
Seriously, there isn't much else you can put on a sports channel when other games run over time and mess up the schedule or when something causes a event to be cancelled.  But wrestling, dude it normally is something you can slap on in the last second.   And given the way matches run, you can even use a half hour worth of show with the notion of it "being already in progress"

I had a lovely chat about stickers on GetGlue.   I'm waiting for mine to come in the mail in order to finish a few scrapbook pages in the movie project that I'm doing.   Yes, stickers.  No I never grew up nor do I intend to.
I want to be 17 forever.  Maybe 12 if I can pull it off.   There's growing up and then there's taking responsibility.   I'll take responsibility but I will never grow up.

I need a guy who pretty much looks at life in the same way.  He's out there, just not in a twenty block radius of where I hang out.
But that my readers is another story for another time and possibly another space/place.

Raise your hand if you feel like singing Rocky Horror Picture Show  songs.... whenever I hear someone say "another time and place"   I always think about the last scene in the movie when the Narrator closes the book and the house blasts off.    Good times. 

362 B

I feel so betrayed.   My love, my obsession, my GetGlue.
I went to check into a topic, everything was groovy, refresh the page and it made me log in again.  When I did, there was a totally different website.  Damn you bastards!  Minus everything!  All it had were tv shows and movies and everything else was gone.  GONE! 
Then, in microscopic print was a link to the old original site.  Fine, do it the hard way.

I'm not the only one upset by this update, hundreds of people are feeling the same, many saying they are going to delete their profiles.

It sucks.  Even though they are swearing they will keep the old version for the majority of us who want something more then tv shows and movies,  we have to wonder... not too mention, how does that effect cross overs?   Can we communicate with the people using the new version?

I hate change. It's not always a good thing.

Day 362

I'm up, once again before the alarm. Which, I suppose is a good thing as it lets me get this done without becoming late for physio.

Anyway, not a lot to say this morning. Checking in to GetGlue, moping about the fact I'm missing out on all the Halloween sales at the stores because I haven't been shopping since the day I smashed up my knee.  And when I say shopping, I mean I have not been to the mall, or Walmart even.  I don't really consider five minutes at the craft store shopping.
And with Zellers going out of business here... all those clearance sales in the dvd department... deep sigh.

I said it before in real life and on the blogs,  in Sex and the City  Carrie Bradshaw had her shoe addiction and I have my DVD addiction.

Just a few more days on this blog for this "year"  then I will be starting fresh with a new single focus. And at that time, my other blog - the big red one- will become my main blog again. Or so that's my plan at this moment.
But if I learned anything from the knee injury is that plans can chance in the blink of an eye.

Okay coffee now, then off to physio therapy for three hours.

Day 361

...and I'm thinking this morning about blogs.  About wrestlers.  About the official Spike channel TNA blog.  And how the hits are not as high with Robbie E as they used to be with the MotorCityMachine Guns! (god I miss them in the company)

I also noticed that he didn't post this last week.  What's up with that?  Okay, so I actually only started to read his share of the blog in the last week, and to be honest I'm not sure I should have.

But the first thing that came to mind when I read his post on tag teams, was that he's too in character. I get that he's suppose to be, that it's sort of the point.  But at the same time, he needs to break character just an inch. I don't mean totally break down that 4th wall, just... light the work station so that his silhouette can be seen through the curtain.

That's if he's even still got the homework assignment of the blog...

 Speaking of blogs... If you follow my movie challenge blog, I had 3 posts on there yesterday.  The movie de jour,  a top 5 and the quote of the day.
If only I could get that much work done in the rest of my life I'd be spiffy.

Day 360

Birds are singing outside.  The best sound in the world

Collecting my morning stickers on GetGlue and thinking I have maybe ten minutes before the kid wakes up and steals tv.  I hate babysitting. 
They don't even ask half the time anymore, just show up with the kid.  I'm not babysitting actually, it's mom who is, but one more reason to get strong enough to go back home.

Down to the last few days in "the year"  for this blog, then a fresh year with a more focused topic.
yay!

And if you're following the movie blog, I've cracked the 100 mark.  Like 98 days left on the one movie a day challenge.  And I've already got plans for 2013 as far as that challenge goes. But more on that later. 

Day 359

I turn on my computer, it flashes and suddenly there is Skype.
I don't use skype, don't even know how it got on my computer.  But for some reason, it won't let me delete it.

Morning.
Cold, rainy, dark.  Just the way I like it.   It is officially the first day of Fall.  Lovely.

Not much to talk about this morning.  I'm finally caught up on my wrestling for the last week.  Minus last night's TNA Impact that is.  I either have to wait for the show to be officially uploaded to Spike or hunt it down on youtube. 

Okay, off to have a coffee then get ready for physio.  My knee is starting to look normal shaped now that the swelling is down. I hope my scar fades a bit as it takes up half my leg.

Day 358

It's funny watching mother watch wrestling.
WWE NXT was on last night, and we were watching the Seth Rollins - I still want to call him Tyler Black- match. Mom was yelling at the tv telling him to watch out. And of course commented on his two toned hair, which does look very much like another certain former TNA wrestler's hair... hhmmm, anyways; just before that there had been a tag team match which mom was screaming "that's not fair he is not suppose to interfere he should be sent to the back"
 mom has become a wrestling junkie.  It's only taken 38 years.

Getting ready for physio therapy. It's a later time again today, but my body has gotten used to getting up at the same time for the last while, and once again, I was up before the alarm.  I may need a nap by the time I get home.

The dvr mom has, only allows you to set the timer for a week a head of time.  Mom made the comment yesterday when a commercial came on for one of the new shows that is starting next week, about having to call me every night once I get back home to let her know what needs to be set in the dvr.

Home.
Just waiting out the last couple of weeks of physio therapy then when I don't need to get out every single day, I will be going home.  I am still having issues with stairs.

Okay, going to end this here because they have started doing some sort of construction work in the building and I can't think straight.

Day 357

Morning!
How are all my blogging people today?

Yes, good mood.  It's raining, dark and gloomy out. Perfect weather for heading into Fall.  Though, Fall seemed to start a week early here.  Normally we have 3 seasons here,  Winter which lasts from Nov 2nd till April 28th ish, Construction which lasts from April 28th ish till Sept 30th and October which well lasts from October 1st till October 31st. 
Nov 1st is almost like a free space with it being All Souls Day, technically an extension of Hallowe'en. It's definitely candy season, cause that's when all the people are eating their treats and that's when the stores put them on sale.  For clearance to make room for the x-mas stuff.

But, if you've been reading me for any amount of time you know I like rainy days like this because it's the only time I don't seem to have sinus headaches.  I had a brutal one yesterday when the weather was starting to change.
I really need to move to a place that is closer to the sea.  Not the little bay of filth we have here but a proper coast.

So, having a coffee, hanging out on GetGlue and getting ready for physio.  Which is an hour later today. And somehow, I still woke long before the alarm. 

356 B

You might remember I mentioned like two weeks ago, that I was reading an autobiography called The Ramen King and I, How the Inventor of Instant Noodles Fixed My Love Life  by Andy Raskin.

Well, I finished it before I went to physio this morning. 

First off, I had heard about the book on GetGlue, and the few reviews and comments people had written of it were very negative.  But I've never let that stop me before.  I am one of those people who believes that everything happens for a reason when it does and to whom it does.
There was a reason I was meant to learn about this book now.

I just haven't really figured out what that is yet.

You follow the life of the author as he goes through a form of rehab, and takes the risks in his personal and career lives that he's been afraid to until that point, all the while trying to gain a meeting with Mr. Ando. 

What I learned from this book, is that you can't look at what you have failed to accomplish, but what you have managed to accomplish. You just have to recognize that failures are the baby steps to the success, the learning and realizing that if you didn't have the guts to at lest try then you truly failed. And that sometimes no matter how much you pray/plan/or beg, you might not get what you want but be led to what you need.
Which is pretty much what my physio therapist has been drilling into my mind about my knee for the last 6 months.

Day 356

Cold, rainy, dark outside.
My kind of morning.

I've really got nothing to talk about this morning.   Physio therapy went well yesterday. I hope today does too.

I did watch that new show last night, Revolution.  It was good.  I don't think it will last more then 2 seasons, but it will draw people for the next few months. 
You can tell a good tv year when you can find more then one show a night you want to see. There used to be a time when Friday nights were the night every show wanted to be on, and Mondays were the lame duck.  Now, Mondays seems to be the big night and you don't get much of anything on Fridays anymore. 

Life shifts.  Sometimes it's subtle and sometimes it's with a quake.

Day 355

Happy Birthday Elvira.
Well, the actress... the character was created on a different date.



Not much to talk about this morning, just getting ready for physio therapy.
But I added a small blog post on my vampire blog just about this, so I thought I'd come in and write something here on this blog.

Nearly finished reading "Ramen King and I"  that I mentioned a week or two ago, so far so good.

Okay, getting coffee then going to physio.

Day 354

I think GetGlue has underestimated their sticker collectors. They opened the first Twilight sticker yesterday for the new movie, and it was one that they had more of, as in a few thousand copies.
It is now expired, and the second one which was not scheduled for another few weeks had to be made available.  I find this funny.

In my life time, I've seen two major movie franchises cause this sort of frenzy in people.  Star Wars and Star Trek.  It's weird to think that a series of vampire films for teens would ever be put in the same category, but it is-has-will.

You all know I have a hate-lukewarm hate- for Twilight.  It's like when your starved but dislike everything on the menu, you still have to pick something  to eat, so you pick the soup and salad.

And if you're wondering if I went for my copy of the Twilight movie stickers on there... you bet your Maltese Bippy I did.   I'm still trying to get movie related stuff for my movie project. 

Day 353

Trying to catch up with last night's WWE Smackdown.  Had to DVR it cause mom ended up babysitting last minute. 

Also hanging out on GetGlue, still my new favourite obsession, and it's weird, seeing how some people interact on there. The only conversations I've really taken part in are for my favourite soap opera, Bold and Beautiful. But I've been reading the fan pages for everything that I've been listing in my profile.  Some of the stuff is like a riot in process.

Something else I've noticed, about commercials on tv.  The only time there are any movie commercials is during wrestling.  It's like none of the regular channels seem to play any movie commercials, but the sports station does.

Day 352

I've been up for less then half an hour and already I'm shaking.
you should not start your internet reading for the morning with the Blogger Status updates. It will either upset you or freak you out to paranoia.

So, physio yesterday... he's upping me to five days a week again starting Monday. 
And here I thought I was really doing well when he down scheduled me to three days a week. 

My jaw is still weird. Now the other side is making cracking sounds whenever I open my mouth.  I'm starting to really worry. 
I think my body is just getting revenge for the last 6 and a half months of wear and tear from the knee.  I tore muscles in the first few weeks of this mess from the crutches, had what felt like a small stress fracture in the one arm because of the crutches, my good leg is constantly achy, my ribs were because of the way I was standing with the cane, and now my jaw...  so yeah when you get injured don't assume it's just one body part that is affected cause it's not. 

Day 351

I got my mother hooked on the Vampire Diaries in only two episodes.  Nice.  I think it has more to do with the one actor looking like a young Rob Lowe then anything else, but still it's interesting to see her watching the show.
I mentioned on my vampire themed blog few weeks ago, that we've only just got the series here in my area.  The channel here that started carrying it, has been showing it from the first season, so we're only about 8 or 9 episodes into the first season.  I have this feeling I'm going to have to break down soon and order the dvds of all of the seasons to date. 
Why I find this funny, is the fact that I could never get her to watch Forever Knight, or Buffy the Vampire Slayer or Angel. 
I was always banned to the basement growing up if I wanted to watch vampire movies while mom was home.  I ended up just having my room in the basement and my own tv and vcr by the time I was 12.

Anyways, that's the randomness that's on my mind this morning as I get ready for another day of physio therapy.  Therapist said today will be a day of deep knee squats.  I'm not sure how that's going to go given I still can't bend to pick things up unless I bend at the waist.  I needed to tie my shoe the other day and had a hell of a time cause I could not bend at the knee. 

Try it, from a standing position, bend at the waist, no help from anyone, no lifting your leg or propping it on anything and tie your shoe. Totally straight legged and you'll see it's a bit difficult.

Anyways, coffee then I'm off to physio.

Day 350

In the home stretch with this year on this blog.  Then, the "new year" shall begin with a more focused topic.

The movie de jour is up. Day 262.
I thought about giving a heads up, but na. I'm evil.

Physio therapy yesterday was stressful and tiring.  I had to do laps around the physio gym, without my cane.  I'd get two steps at a time and have to stop. Took me nearly a half hour to go around the room. I didn't realize just how little weight I've really been putting through the bad leg.
Here, all this time, I was thinking I was doing better with the weight bearing bareing barring then I really am.

Okay, that's all I've got for now.

Day 349

Up, getting ready for physio therapy.  Tired.

Spent a few hours yesterday hunting online for vampire themed party stuff.  Can't find much that is available in Canada. Then thought, Twilight right, it's everywhere.  
Yeah, almost all discontinued, and the few items are again, unable to ship in Canada. I'm starting to feel a bit on the I'm screwed side.

Twenty or Fifteen or even Ten years ago, I would not have had any problems putting together a vampire themed anything.  All from stuff I either had on hand or hunted down at a dollar store.  But now, it's like the time of the vampire craze and I am at a loss.
Ironic

Anyways, coffee then physio therapy.

Day 348

I got the movie de jour up. Day 261 
I know, it's been a few days on there since I posted, and the post is short but I managed to get to see a movie. Things should start to get back on track with that. 
When I started the one movie a day for a year challenge,  I never thought about the unexpected things that can get in the way, like health issues, bad weather that causes poweroutages, or unexpected company that just drops in-babysitting in that category.

But I suppose, it's what really makes the challenge a challenge and what makes life life right?

Another short post here this morning.  Now, to make coffee.

Day 347

It's been one of those days that got derailed early.  I'm only now getting around to my usual internet stuff that I normally have done when I get up.

And, I just remembered ontop of it that there is a pay-per-view wrestling event tonight.  Of which, I'm unable to get. 
Anyways, been working on some of the elements for a project that I will be doing in 2013-movie related- and I completely got wrapped up in it and lost all track of everything else, including time.

Really, just a quick note today.  I've got about a half hour before the usual Sunday company shows up.

Day 346

No going to the movies this weekend, that plan got shot to hell.

The temp has dropped here to +8c and the winds have picked up.   I guess Fall came early this season. 
Just having a coffee, and hanging out on my obsession GetGlue.   Ever notice that no matter what you're doing in life, you have days that just make you feel like you're being pulled in millions of directions at once, and then days where you hear every tick of the clock.

It's got the feel of a long slow day.  Mom's babysitting, so all we'll be watching is Treehouse channel.  So if you're following the movie blog... I can't make any promises today cause I might not get the chance to watch anything.

Day 345

Fire trucks in the area for the last few hours.  Woke me up twice.
Seriously, hoping to get the the cinema this weekend. All depends if my sister ever returns our phone calls. 
It's a case of, so tired of being stuck inside that I'll agree to any demands if it means getting out.  I would just normally go to the cinema myself, but I'm still little shaky with stairs, so taking a bus is not an option right now. Not too mention, this city is really horrid for strollers.

Let me explain for all you drivers out there. The amount of teenaged mothers in this city is through the roof, and they always take their strollers on the bus, and don't care who they smash into.  I'm not kidding when I say it's an epidemic. 
The city buses here are designed for wheelchair users to be able to buckle safely in, which means you can fit one motor wheelchair per bus, or two normal wheelchairs per bus.  But the stroller moms, take up those spots. And it's a risk for anyone who has a disability. 
I know there is a new law here that says all strollers must be packed up in their "storage position"  when on the bus and the child either held or seated on the bus properly, but no one actually bothers to follow that law and it ends up dangerous.

Getting way off topic... point was, I'm hoping to get to see a movie this weekend. 

344 evening

Back finally from the doctor's.  Oh my god I was starting to think they had forgotten we were still waiting.
Got my staples and stitches out, and another fresh bandage for a few days.
The good news is that I don't have to see the surgeon again for another 2 months. And that will be my final appointment. 
Bad news is,  now I have to deal with the dentist.   I have no clue what I did to my jaw the other night, but I have to go in about it.    I swear, there is a god or demon, or fairy or gremlin or something out there just cursing me constantly.  I barely get over one health issue and something else happens. 

Day 344

Too early.  I actually woke before my alarm by a half hour.
Getting ready to go to a too early physio therapy again, and then to a doctor's appointment again.
Getting the staples and stitches out today.

Which means I'm going to be sitting around the waiting room for god knows how long before the tech who runs the Fracture Clinic removes my bandages, and tells the doctor how the scar looks, in which point the doctor will step into the room and either nod approval for them to come out in which case, the tech removes them and I go home, or the doctor decides something else will be done. 

I know the routine too well.  I really do look like a Frankenstein monster with all my scars.

Speaking of being an expert at strange stuff, on my latest favourite obsession, GetGlue, I've been trying to get labeled Guru on a few topics.  Only it's a bitch.   There is this one guy who wrote one thing on the fictional characters from Dracula  like two years ago, most of the character topics are empty, except Dracula itself which is always overflowing; but even with my constant attention to the some of the topics, I still can't seem to move up the food chain. Just because one guy made a comment and never returned.
It's like a game.  The people who invented GetGlue are genius. They took the best parts of social networking and the best parts of games and made this site.

Okay, now, to have coffee before I have to get going. 

Day 343

Ever get the feeling you're falling to "keep up"?
As in, you see what everyone else has and you feel like you should be having the same.

I have to admit, I feel that way when I'm viewing other scrapbooking blogs.  When I see the finished projects that all those other scrappers have done, I start feeling like I failed at the hobby because my projects never look that good.
Same thing with my cooking.  When I first started to get back into cooking few years ago, and started to read other cooking blogs, I was always starstruck by how beautiful, and easy their dishes were.
Mine never came out like theirs.   In fact, 8 out 10 times, my dishes were disasters.

It gets intimidating to say the lest.

I was just on one of the scrapbooking sites, to see what some of the new products are for Fall/Halloween,  and when I spotted some of the latest projects from the members on the site, I just felt so deflated.
They are just so good.  I have to wonder where most of them find the time to work on their projects?  These are people- mostly married working moms- who crank out twenty or more projects a week like they were just making tea.
Very detailed projects that use seven or eight techniques and themes per project.

There was a time in my life, about 20 years ago, when none of this would have even hit my radar.  I have no idea why as I get older stuff like this has started to pick at me?

342 b

Back from physio.  My knee is killing me now. Not the bones or even the joints, but the flesh.  The staples feel like they've torn flesh a bit, from where my therapist had me on the rowing machine.  Even with it set to a lower level to accommodate the staples and stitches, it still felt like they were going to burst.
Thank god they come out in two days.

So, if you're paying attention to the countdown on this blog, there are only a handful of days left and the "year" will be officially up.
And given I ran over by like 8 months anyway, it was never a true year.
What I'm getting at is that once it's up, I'm going to start a "fresh year"  and at this point, I am toying with the idea of it being used to follow my getting back into some sort of shape. Given, this ended up following my knee injury, might as well keep a "health" theme with it.

Well, that's what I'm thinking as of this point. 

Day 342

8am
Getting ready for physio therapy.  Had a bad night.  One of those nights where I was just getting to sleep when the alarm went off.
Ribs are killing me.  They have been bothering me more then my knee in the last week. Still have no idea what I did to my ribs.
it's already muggy here, and they are calling for temps of +29c with humidex of +33c here today.  So not happy
Missed WWE Raw last night.  Will have to catch the replay this afternoon, as something is up with the DVR.  It's as if it's suddenly got a mind of its own as to what it wants to tape and what it cancels.  Maybe it's haunted? 
Was just having oatmeal cookies with my first cup of coffee.  I think I'm the only person on the planet who is not much of a fan of chocolate chip cookies.  I much prefer ginger snaps or oatmeal cookies. I know, I'm weird.
Okay, must make proper breakfast now, then wrap my knee in plastic wrap so the bandages don't get wet in the shower. 
Yeah, it's going to be one of those days.

Day 341

Been up for about an hour, been writing. 

You've all heard me say... or I should say -read that I've typed- about my latest obsession, GetGlue.  I learned about it from a movie.   Few weeks ago, I had done a movie for the challenge, and when I went to get the poster art from the internet, I saw this link for the movie on GetGlue. I wish I had learned about this earlier.

So I have a confession to make. There is this Twilight sticker on there that I want.  Want for my scrapbooking project that ties into my all year movie challenge.  -yes, I missed yesterday's movie as we had company and I did not have a chance to watch anything-
Only, in order to get the sticker, I would have to actually, like and be knowledgeable of Twilight. 

Sort of sucks, all puns intended. And it's a catch-22.  Cause, I'm not knowledgeable of Twilight, and it's always been a hate-lukewarm like-hate  thing I've had for the whole Twilight Saga thing. 
And I'd have to interact with other fans.   Even if I did have a knowledge base of the books vs the movies, I don't think I could stomach interacting with a bunch of  14 year old girls and their Edward obsessed moms.
It's enough knowing that I'm admitting that I am actually looking forward to the last chapter of the movies in November.  

It's a vampire movie, of course I'm looking forward to it.  Specially since I've been stuck on my mom's sofa for so long and missed Dark Shadows, Batman Dark Knight Rises, Snow White and the Huntsman  and the Avengers.  

Day 340

Just before I woke up few minutes ago, I had a dream.  In the dream, I was looking the way I had about 9 years ago. Short spikes of platinum blonde hair, pale skin the colour of baby powder, 70 pounds lighter, and I was singing and dancing in my dream.

Yes, I've gained 70 pounds in the last couple of years since my car accident but that's another topic for another time.

But the point was, in the dream, I was extremely happy.  And for a few seconds as I was waking up, I felt that way to my core.  Totally beyond joyful.

Then I realized I'm still currently on the sofa at my mother's with a massive bandage on my knee and reality was back.

The point though I think of the dream, was the feeling.  I don't know if it was to let me know I can and will feel that wonderful again, or to remind me that I am capable of feeling that great?

Anyways, that's my goal, to feel that way again. No matter if I manage to get looking like that again or not.  And given how difficult it's been to loose the weight again since my injuries, I have to accept that I might not.  
The hair is easy enough if I pay a stylist, but my skin doesn't seem to want to behave now that I'm older.  I go outside for two minutes and I seem to burn which just doesn't bounce back like it used to. 

Work on getting the knee back into proper working order, maybe I can be strong enough on it to still sing and dance around the kitchen. Recapture the feeling in the dream.

Hope that anyone who reads this today is dancing and singing too.

day 339

One of my most favourite sounds on the planet is birds.
Any kind of birds.  It's the one natural sound that is truly musical.  Other then human singing.
Just sitting here now listening to the birds outside the open window.

Was a bad night, as my ribs were really bothering me.  They seem to be getting worse.  But I've had injured ribs before and they don't do anything at the doctor's other then give pain meds, and I already have those from the knee surgery.

Short post this morning, as  I just got up and don't have much to say.   Need to find a movie to watch and figure out a way to fix this story I was writing few weeks ago. 
I had a great occult themed plot for my lead character, then I introduced a new character and suddenly the story became all about him. Which changed my plot. 
So my story needs to be fixed.